今年も湖にて亡き友人を偲ぶ Remembering a deceased friend at the lake again this year
残念ながら学生時代の事故で夭逝した友人は、子供の頃から文武両道に優れるだけでなく、悠揚たる物腰も備え、大いに人を惹きつける人物でした。クラスは違っていても一緒に遊ぶ機会も多く、私の兄妹を可愛がってもくれました。進む道こそ違いましたが、互いの道を歩む中で彼は私を刺激してくれていたと一方的に思っています。事故のニュースを受け、一人っ子でもご両親に甘やかされることなく育った彼らしい正義感から行動して亡くなってしまったことは、色々な意味で不公平の極みだとも自分勝手に強く憤りました。彼の死について感じることを私は今もまだ上手く表現できません。
この場を訪れる時には飲み物を2人分購入して、しばらく湖のほとりに座ります。友人が生きていたら。彼が今も生きていたら、どのような価値観をもち、どのような選択をしながら、社会とどのようにかかわって生きているだろう。友人の居る場所から現在の世界をどのように見ているだろう。そんなことを想像し、知らず知らずのうちに彼に問いかけながら、いつの間にか今の自分の在り方を振り返っています。生きられている者として、恥ずかしくない生き方をできているだろうか。そして、背中を押してもらうような気持ちになり帰路につきます。
現在、私は自分で全く予想していなかった生き方を選択していますが、その選択も過去の様々な選択と同じように、その時その時に熟考して選んだ結果の積み重ねであると理解しています。当オフィスとのご縁を選択してつながって下さる方々、ご縁をつなげて下さる方々に対して誠実な対応を心掛ける。今回もその気持ちを新たにしました。
The day after the conference, I took a little trip to a local lake that had a connection to my late friend. Last year I came here with my siblings, and this year I was able to visit alone again, which brought back a lot of memories.
My friend, who unfortunately passed away in an accident while he was a student, not only excelled in both academics and sports from a young age, but also possessed a calm demeanor and was a person who attracted many people. Even though we were in different classes, we often had the opportunity to play together, and he was also fond of my siblings. Although we followed different paths, I believe he inspired me as we walked our respective paths. Upon hearing the news of the accident, I felt a strong, selfish anger, thinking that it was the height of injustice in many ways, that he had died acting out of a sense of justice that was so characteristic of him, an only child who had grown up without being spoiled by his parents. I still cannot express well how I feel about his death. Although our paths were different, I unilaterally believe that he inspired me as we walked each other's paths. When I received the news of the accident, I was selfishly and strongly resented that even though he was an only child, he died because he acted out of a sense of justice that was typical of him who grew up without being spoiled by his parents. I still can't express how I feel about his death.
When I visit, I buy a drink for two and sit by the lake for a while. I imagine my friend if he were still alive. If he were alive today, what values would he have, what choices would he make, and how would he interact with society? How would he view the world today from where he is? Imagining these things, I unconsciously ask him questions, and before I know it, I find myself reflecting on my current state of being. Am I living a life that I won't be ashamed of, as a living person? And then, feeling as if I've been given a push in the right direction, I head home.
Currently, I am choosing a way of life that I did not anticipate at all, but I understand that this choice is the accumulation of the results of my careful consideration at that time, like the various choices I made in the past. I will try to be sincere in my work with those who choose to connect with this office and those who connect with me. I renewed that feeling this time.
My friend, who unfortunately passed away in an accident while he was a student, not only excelled in both academics and sports from a young age, but also possessed a calm demeanor and was a person who attracted many people. Even though we were in different classes, we often had the opportunity to play together, and he was also fond of my siblings. Although we followed different paths, I believe he inspired me as we walked our respective paths. Upon hearing the news of the accident, I felt a strong, selfish anger, thinking that it was the height of injustice in many ways, that he had died acting out of a sense of justice that was so characteristic of him, an only child who had grown up without being spoiled by his parents. I still cannot express well how I feel about his death. Although our paths were different, I unilaterally believe that he inspired me as we walked each other's paths. When I received the news of the accident, I was selfishly and strongly resented that even though he was an only child, he died because he acted out of a sense of justice that was typical of him who grew up without being spoiled by his parents. I still can't express how I feel about his death.
When I visit, I buy a drink for two and sit by the lake for a while. I imagine my friend if he were still alive. If he were alive today, what values would he have, what choices would he make, and how would he interact with society? How would he view the world today from where he is? Imagining these things, I unconsciously ask him questions, and before I know it, I find myself reflecting on my current state of being. Am I living a life that I won't be ashamed of, as a living person? And then, feeling as if I've been given a push in the right direction, I head home.
Currently, I am choosing a way of life that I did not anticipate at all, but I understand that this choice is the accumulation of the results of my careful consideration at that time, like the various choices I made in the past. I will try to be sincere in my work with those who choose to connect with this office and those who connect with me. I renewed that feeling this time.
2025年09月22日 09:00
